It’s a heavy name to carry if I’m frank. Sometimes I want to put it down and be “Pure Bliss”. All my life I am fighting the noble fight, the pure war.. In my upbringing the fight against the restrictions & oppression of the culture. Listening to Songs of Freedom by Bob Marley caged in the 4 walls of my childhood bedroom. In my carrier I have fought against the pressure of becoming an engineer or a doctor to be a dancer, Bellydancer even! ha ha! An Arab parents nightmare! In the Dutch society I have fought for my spot to belong, to be seen! To be of worth. I fought & still fight against the stigma of depression and mental health.
I fought & still fight to heal generational trauma, to heal the pain my family lineage has carried so far and break these taboos. I fight for liberation.
To show those sides of ourselves that can be miserable, lost, confused, scared, vulnerable. Just as much as our sides that shine & thrive! I have founded the dance movement almost 13 years ago. And for around 9 years I have presented myself in class with a cheerful face as can be, whilst hiding my depression as best as I could. I did that until I couldn’t and broke down.
When I started teaching 1,5 years ago I decided to bring the whole of me to class. Enough hiding.
This is me TOO.
The warrior. The wounded. The proud and the defeated.
I am all that.
A warrior of light and darkness.
I am Sarah Pure War.
Photo by the incredible @irisnibbering